Perspectives before pausing
The end of an era
I have to be honest with you about what is happening here, before I take a break from writing essays for this channel.
I posted something here a while ago that referenced a somewhat distorted relating dynamic with a friend. I told her ahead of time, “hey, I am writing about this”. It was something we’d talked about between us, multiple times already. The dynamic is universal, but this was a personal example. I gave her early warning that I was going to mention my experience, without identifying her of course. I reminded her to not take it personally, because it really wasn’t about her. It was my story and my inner experience. She acknowledged my text with a heart emoji.
A few days after the essay was published, she cancelled her subscription to this channel without warning. That hurt. A lot. She was a close friend. And she knew exactly how much this Substack channel meant to me — why I started publishing my writing here in the beginning, and what it represented. In other words, she knew exactly how to punch me where it hurt the most. There was no heads up, no text in advance, just a cold, automated, system notification with no explanation.
Ever since then, I have felt pain in my heart every time I come to share something new in this forum. It feels like I am touching an open wound. And truthfully, even before this event happened, my paying subscribers here have been declining for more than a year. The energy field of support has been wobbly and waning for some time already.
It seems like the Universe is telling me to pour my energy elsewhere. This is my way of letting you know that I am taking a leave of absence from Substack. It is most likely temporary, but it could possibly be permanent. Who knows. While I may come back to writing essays here eventually, I can’t say when.
The full essay archives will continue to be available for paying subscribers. There are roughly 50 essays that span a broad range of topics in the realms on spiritual, personal, and social inquiry. (Some of my personal favorites or “greatest hits” are linked below.)
Thank you for being here supporting my writing, and creating this space for me to share my ideas. Thank you especially to my 22 paying subscribers: your generosity has held space here for more than a thousand readers to receive my writing, twice a month.
If you’ve been here reading and enjoying my essays over the past 33 months, I invite you to send me a message to let me know… or to leave a donation if you feel moved to do so via PayPal or Wise.
In Love and Truth,
Wendy
Dear Wendy, we all know that things happen for good reasons and that is wise to surrender to the flow of life……. gracefully and with appreciation
and love. I am positive that whatever you decide to do will only enhance the bright beam of light you are. And that your energy and all the wisdom you have to share will reach the right person at the right time! You are blessed and so is your journey! ❤️🙌🏻🙏🏻
Your writings have inspired me in many ways. You've given me many different perspectives to view and approach life, and wisdom I will be eternally grateful for. Thank you for being vulnerable and open to those willing to listen. You will be missed. ❤️